When I lived in Texas one of the very first things I did was get a dog. I got a little fawn colored female chihuahua that I named Lilly. She was the love of my life, but after about a month, she was lonely. The answer- another chihuahua. I loaded up and headed to Houston and bought Gizmo- a toy blue fawn on white male chihuahua. They were my children. I loved those dogs tons.
They moved from Texas to Iowa to Idaho with me. They went through the birth of two babies with me. They went through a marriage and through a divorce with me. They went through a new boyfriend with me, and unfortunately as time went on- they got less and less attention. I didn't love them any less, I just didn't have the time for them any more. They hated the girls, they peed and pooped all over my house, they ate my clothes, but I still loved them.
One day last week I got a text message from Jason- the dogs were gone. He had taken both of them to the pound. He had aspirations that some little old lady would adopt them and give them love and attention. My heart broke. I bawled. For all intents and purposes- my dogs had died, both of them at once and without any warning. I didn't even get to say good bye.
I thought about going back to get them, but realized that would be the wrong thing to do. I DONT have the time for them- they stay caged up literally 18 hours out of a 24 hour day. When they are uncaged they were always in trouble. Plus, the girls already knew the dogs were gone and not coming back so I couldn't confuse them by showing back up with them.
I sit here teary eyed as I write this thinking about my little buddies. The house is so quiet now with out their barks and growls, without their nails clicking on the wood, or the sound of them jumping off the bed to the floor. Yesterday I boxed up all their stuff- food, treats, toys, dishes, EVERYTHING and threw it away- hysterical as I did it. Then I deep cleaned my house- cleaning dog hair up for the last time.....
I'm sorry I let you guys down..I love ya and hope that you will find a good home with all the love and attention you guys deserve. Happy trails little buddies you guys brought me lots of joy!
